I feel really disconnected from time passing, like it hasn’t got anything to do with me and I can opt out of it if I want. It feels like the more I try to be productive, the more I’m admitting that time is passing and am engaging with it and then Im tied into rushing things. It feels like by doing nothing I am safe from that pressure, so its so hard to do ANYTHING. I would love to be a more proactive person who worked with the passing time, not against it. I have this constant feeling that I’m wasting my life and I’ll never know who I am/have interests and skills because doing anything is too stressful and overwhelming. I don’t want to hide from life and reality any more.
Does anyone have any tips on this/feel the same?