This can’t be for real, i don’t know what to do anymore.
I put a lot of effort into keeping up with everyday life. But there was always that one thing. I first noticed it with my spelling: i could read my text multiple times before i post it, making absolutely sure i got everything right, but EVERY TIME i read the text a few days later i would find a spelling error i missed… Not that bad you might think. What makes me want to pull my hair out is that this kind of stuff happens with really important shit as well. Yesterday i wrapped up some stuff at work. I wanted to do it right. Wrote my code cleanly, tested the software, made sure everything worked. Some automated tests failed, but that’s no big deal. Today i get to work earlier, i wanted to check again if i didn’t miss anything. And guess what? My boss is already up since 6 o’clock fixing issues with my code. I forgot a lot of declarations, some code is duplicate, my boss is fuming and asking what i’ve been doing the last couple of days.
I can’t do this shit anymore. I’m a grown ass man and i’m sitting here crying because i’ve been busting my ass and can’t even justify it and i don’t know what do.